Have you ever felt like you have no idea where you will end up in a few years?
I want to do so many things but feel like I have no way to accomplish them.
I want to buy a house. No down payment. I am pissed that I have a job and can't even be independent and afford my own house. Pisses me off.
I am dating a new guy. I don't think its going to work long term. I don't see how it could. He is great and awesome and makes me happy for now but there are too many things that I ideally would change so I am just not sure.
I want to get a hobby. What hobby not a clue. Any hobby ideas?
Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Learning about me
So I have been I guess on this journey of self discovery lately. Trying to get my life in order and really be an adult. Well last night I discovered that I shouldn't in fact drink. Ever. I hadn't be drinking for a month because someone issued me a challenge and I had been doing awesome. I was able to go out and enjoy myself just by drinking diet coke etc. But last night I got to the bar really early with a friend and just had too much to drink. I realize that it just tends to make me feel crappy about myself and want to cry. I don't want to be that. I don't want to be weak. I am a strong independent person and I am going to kick life in the ass and be a spectacular person. I just need to be with my friends and family but i control all this. It is in my control. I am going to be awesome!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
How to Boost Self-Esteem
Not that I lack it in all areas of my life. There is one glaring area though that gets me in trouble all the time. I lack self-confidence around men. I never feel like I will be able to be in a relationship because I am not sure that I feel that I am actually worthy of being loved.
It is sad really. Job wise, complete confidence. I feel like I could conquer the world there. Also, I am proud of myself for making it on my own and being a pretty independent person. I just lack the confidence in relationships. I am pretty loud a lot and kind of an in your face person and I am not sure people like that. I like that about me but I think it rubs others the wrong way.
Advice? Please comment
It is sad really. Job wise, complete confidence. I feel like I could conquer the world there. Also, I am proud of myself for making it on my own and being a pretty independent person. I just lack the confidence in relationships. I am pretty loud a lot and kind of an in your face person and I am not sure people like that. I like that about me but I think it rubs others the wrong way.
Advice? Please comment
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Worrying about Ike and trying to focus on work
So it looks like we might be evacuating again next week. This hurricane crap is ridiculous. It makes it very difficult to focus on the rest of life.
Tonight I am sitting at a coffee shop creating power points for work. I use the Saints as a way to teach geography to my kids. I saw it done when I was an undergrad and it worked beautifully. I have a large us map on the wall of my classroom and I stick a pin in NOLA and a pin in whatever city the Saints are playing in or against. I then use a string to connect the two places and mark it off with the distance. I create a short power point on the city they are playing to teach them a little geography about the place. I just created the power point for Tampa as that is who they are playing this week. Let me tell, nothing to interesting about Tampa. The next week the Saints play the Redskins so that has some more information about it. Thank goodness.
Cross your fingers for our city or pray or whatever you do. We need it.
Tonight I am sitting at a coffee shop creating power points for work. I use the Saints as a way to teach geography to my kids. I saw it done when I was an undergrad and it worked beautifully. I have a large us map on the wall of my classroom and I stick a pin in NOLA and a pin in whatever city the Saints are playing in or against. I then use a string to connect the two places and mark it off with the distance. I create a short power point on the city they are playing to teach them a little geography about the place. I just created the power point for Tampa as that is who they are playing this week. Let me tell, nothing to interesting about Tampa. The next week the Saints play the Redskins so that has some more information about it. Thank goodness.
Cross your fingers for our city or pray or whatever you do. We need it.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Back Home
So I am back home and am starting to get sick. I was with my sister all week who was running fever and had a cough and now I am starting to get a sore throat which doesn't really make me happy.
New Orleans is a bit of a mess. Last night I came and checked on my apartment and didn't have power. I slept at my dads. This morning I came back and am lucky enough to have power and cable. We are supposed to go back to work on Monday and I hope we do because I am getting slight cabin fever.
I was going to go grocery shopping today as I have no food in the house. We learned from Katrina to empty out freezers/refrigerators. But they are so under staffed at this point that there was a line out the door waiting. They would only let so many people in at one time. Maybe tomorrow I will do that. Today I was just not up for it.
There are downed power lines all over and traffic lights are kinda touch and go but hopefully everyday it will get better.
All eyes are on Ike now hoping it will leave us alone. We have had about all we can handle for the next 100 years.
New Orleans is a bit of a mess. Last night I came and checked on my apartment and didn't have power. I slept at my dads. This morning I came back and am lucky enough to have power and cable. We are supposed to go back to work on Monday and I hope we do because I am getting slight cabin fever.
I was going to go grocery shopping today as I have no food in the house. We learned from Katrina to empty out freezers/refrigerators. But they are so under staffed at this point that there was a line out the door waiting. They would only let so many people in at one time. Maybe tomorrow I will do that. Today I was just not up for it.
There are downed power lines all over and traffic lights are kinda touch and go but hopefully everyday it will get better.
All eyes are on Ike now hoping it will leave us alone. We have had about all we can handle for the next 100 years.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Ready to Go Home
I am still in Tallahassee. We are planning on leaving tomorrow (Thursday). I am ready to go now. Nagin decided to open the city basically because you have to drive through there to get anywhere else. I am just ready to go back home. I don't care if I don't have power. I am ready to go. Now.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
My Hurricane Gustav Story
After being back in New Orleans around 35 days, a hurricane was coming straight for me. Great. Back to evacuating. Almost three years to the day after Katrina.
For the story ... on Saturday I evacuated to Baton rouge to stay with my sister at her dorm at LSU. After being there for about three hours, I received a call from my mother telling us we had to come back and go with them to Tallahassee because it looked like it would be bad in BR. We drove back to Nola.
On sunday morning at 4am, we left for Tallahassee. Well the state of Mississippi sucks and closed I10 going east through their state. So we had to go north. We were on I59 in MS between exits 1 - 26 for 7 hours. In all, it took us all of 20 hours to drive from NOLA to Tallahassee. It was ridiculous.
We have now been in Tallahassee for a couple of days, I am not really sure how long. I have lost all sense of time. I am ready to leave. My dad is home and his parish opens in the morning at 6am. I think I am going to leave at midnight tonight. I am here with my mom and sister, etc. My mom will not come up with a plan. That pisses me off to no end. I need a plan so I think I will be taking off by myself.
I hate Nagin. We had a Cat 2 hurricane brush by us and I can't go to my damn house. What the hell is going on. I am glad the hurricane didn't hit us directly. He is an idiot. First he called it the storm of the century and now he is telling us we are going back to primitive conditions. AHH!!! Some people in the city actually have power so what the crap is he talking about. He sucks and I want to throw things at his head.
I am ready to go home.
For the story ... on Saturday I evacuated to Baton rouge to stay with my sister at her dorm at LSU. After being there for about three hours, I received a call from my mother telling us we had to come back and go with them to Tallahassee because it looked like it would be bad in BR. We drove back to Nola.
On sunday morning at 4am, we left for Tallahassee. Well the state of Mississippi sucks and closed I10 going east through their state. So we had to go north. We were on I59 in MS between exits 1 - 26 for 7 hours. In all, it took us all of 20 hours to drive from NOLA to Tallahassee. It was ridiculous.
We have now been in Tallahassee for a couple of days, I am not really sure how long. I have lost all sense of time. I am ready to leave. My dad is home and his parish opens in the morning at 6am. I think I am going to leave at midnight tonight. I am here with my mom and sister, etc. My mom will not come up with a plan. That pisses me off to no end. I need a plan so I think I will be taking off by myself.
I hate Nagin. We had a Cat 2 hurricane brush by us and I can't go to my damn house. What the hell is going on. I am glad the hurricane didn't hit us directly. He is an idiot. First he called it the storm of the century and now he is telling us we are going back to primitive conditions. AHH!!! Some people in the city actually have power so what the crap is he talking about. He sucks and I want to throw things at his head.
I am ready to go home.
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