Memorial Day

It was very nice to be off of work today and just really have nothing to do at all. I have been tired and my throat is hurting a bit so it was good to just relax. Only 6 more working days of kids and then i will be on my summer break and I am so excited. I will still be doing my meeting for weight watchers so at least I will still be making some extra money but I will be able to do nothing a lot which is nice. I am going home the last week of June and am thinking of going somewhere in July but the place is tbd.

Laziness

So I am having an extremley lazy weekend. Just hanging out and watching tv and being a bum. I have off of work Monday but actually wish I had to go so I could get rid of the kids sooner. June 3rd and they will be gone ... thank goodness for the summer. I think any job I would ever have would need to involve some extended time off just like teaching. It gives me time to recuperate and such.

Working

At work today ... didn't exactly make it here yesterday. So I am bored at my lanning time bc my partner in crime is out on professional development. I had one crazy weekend. And it's so weird to meet people that you think you could really be friends with and then they just leave (es if they are just here on vacay) I mean that really sucks you know. I am just very down and out today and don't know how I am going to make it through the next 9 days of work. If it was a normal school year we would be getting out this week, but since they changed the schedule we don't get out until June 4th and that makes me a tad unhappy. I am just very cranky today. And it is raining so that means no outdoor recess which means the kids start going a little bit crazy. Oh well, hopefully it will be okay.

It's been awhile

So it's been awhile but not a whole lot has changed in my life. I am still making stupid desicions because I have such a low self esteem that I sometimes do dumb things to try to make myself feel better. It doesn't. In fact, it has the opposite effect. I am not sure why I do this to myself. I need to make better choices.

How do you know when you love someone? How do you find someone that is your so called soul mate? Shouldn't they been around already?

Weight Loss Motivation

So this is the time of year when lots of people start tring to lose weight. I started losing weight in January of 2006. Above is a picture of me then. I am the one all the way on the right. Well I have been working my butt of at the gym and doing weight watchers and have lost about 90 lbs. So the other pic is of me now. It can be done and it is so important to work on your weight for your health. Happy new year!

My Car Likes to Test Me

So I think my car likes to test me and my emotional state and different points throughout the year. I have a 2006 car that I bought brand new. In march of 2007, it wouldn't start. So i called handy dandy triple a and they came and towed it to pep boys and then the pep boys got it started in no time by just turning the key and pushing down on the accelerator. I bring it to Nissan the next day and they tell me nothing is wrong with it.

Flash to July 2007. I had just come back from a trip to New Orleans and was luckily picked up at the airport. Well I went to leave to go grocery shopping (always when i need to go the grocery) and it wouldn't start. So at this point I have already forgotten the whole accelerator trick and called triple a. Well this triple a guy knew the trick and started the car. Again nothing wrong.

Seriously if it won't start as soon as I turn the key something has got to be wrong.

So about an hour ago, i travel down to my car to go to the grocery and my car again is testing me. Well I was paranoid about my car not starting my whole time at home this time but when I started it when I was at the airport on the 28th it was fine. 29th same thing. i didn't drive it on the 30th or the 31st. So I feel a little panic. I start breathing a little deeper. But this time, I was able to remain calm (did I forget to say the last two times this happen it evoked major tears.) So i remembered the handy dandy accelerator trick and after realizing I had to push on the accelarator harder it finally came to life. Whoo hoo! I am independent. No triple a needed this time.

I am still a little paranoid about the car but I guess it is a machine and machines are not 100% perfect. But truly, I would just like to know what the problem is so I don't always have to keep the trick in the back of my mind!

Happy 2008!

New Years's Eve and Resolutions

I should be in disney world right not but I am not. I went yesterday and it was crazy crowded and then we went out drinking last night. I got tired and wanted to be at home so i had a friend come and pick me up. So now I am at home and have been reflecting on the past year - it's been a little rough - and decided that i need to make some changes within to become a better me. So here in no particular order are my resolutions or maybe better stated things i will work on in this new year

1. Be a better friend - stop challenging and testing my friends. Accept them for who they are because they accept me for who I am.
2. Be a better daughter and sister - I have been pretty good in this department but feel like I could work harder to make sure the bonds will stay strong.
3. Be a better teacher - my students deserve all of my effort and attention. I might be the only person that ever tells them and shows them that someone cares about them. i need to keep this on my mind at all times.

Those are some big challenges. But the people i look up to in my life have a lot of these things down and I want to model myself after different people in my life. Some have so much drive and determination, some are amzing family members, some are just the best friends a person could ever have.

Happy New year i hope 2008 is great!