Good Day

So I had a great day today even though I must have been in my car for almost 4 hours. I got to talk for a long time to my mom and she talked about how much she appreciated me. A year ago my mom left my dad for someone else. She and her boyfriend are getting married next week. My sister and I adjusted to this change well. It didn't affect me as much as it did my sister as she still lives at home. His kids are being ridiculous about the whole thing. They don't understand why he has to get remarried yadda yadda yadda. Oh and they already have families of their own and are older than I by at least 10 years. Its like get over it. Yeah its rough to have your parents divorce but by the time you are an adult it doesn't really affect you all that much anymore. The man my mom is marrying is a great man and I am starting to see how great a marriage can really be. I didn't have a great example growing up and my mom blames herself for it. It's not her fault and I will be fine. It's good to know that I am appreciated.

Being Spotted

I always knew it would happen eventually. I was spotted by a WW member who was in my meeting last Monday. I am in the Yankee Candle store in the mall wanting to get a candle. Of course I ask the randomest questions so I ask if there is a candle that smells like a man. Or I guess I should say how a man should smell if he was wearing cologne. So I get my candle that smells like a man ... called Midsummers Night .... and I am checking out. The girl asks me how many meetings I do a week. I look around confused momentairly and then realize she is asking about WW. So we chat about that a little bit.

It makes me feel bad when I don't recognize my members in a place that is out of the normal context. I must have over 200 members so of course I can't remember them all and this particular member had only been in my meeting once so I guess I shouldn't feel that bad.

And it's always better to be spotted by a member than a student. Hearing my teacher name yelled across a room also freaks me out.

Lonely Sunday Night

Veyr lonely on this Sunday night. Haven't really done a lot today. Don't have a lot to do tomorrow. Being off of work is cool it is just a time to recoup and everything but it makes me somewhat lonely. It makes me realize how much i don't really have here in Lakeland. I really don't have much of a reason to be here. I am staying to start and finish my second year of teaching at the same school but other than that I really have no connection to here. I wish I had a connection to here but I really just don't.

I am not really sure what I should be doing or where my life is taking me to. I don't know what the hell is going on.

Boring Saturday Night

Saturday nights have gotten a lot less exciting. I am home washing clothes, making a meatloaf for the freezer, and having a glass of good old box wine. I worked three meetings this morning so I am just kind of tired. I have no real motivation to do anything. Oh well, at least tomorrow is only one meeting. And I actually went to the grocery today so I won't have to do that tomorrow which is good.

Crazy Long Day

I drove over 150 miles today. I hate driving. I had to do three meetings for weight watchers and I was going crazy. I am starting a new meeting at a phosphate plant and 3/4 of the group is men. Kinda of strange. I have never had that many men in a group before. I will probably have to tweak my meetings so it is valuable for them. Lots of beer bellies. LOL.

I am just tired and want to sleep a whole day away but can't until Monday. Crazy times and crazy days.

Last night I barely slept at all which was not good. I ws so tired and a little bit tipsy and just couldn't sleep and kept having dreams about rats. Oh well. Such is life.

Hurts

It hurts when you like someone that is so far away and you can't see them. It feels like I have been punched in the gut. It also hurts to like someone more than than like you.

Goal - Not to kill children

TWO MORE DAYS!!! Only two more days with students and I am not sure how I am going to make it. Right now I am in denial that I even have to go to work tomorrow so that isn't really working to my advantage. I would rather sit home and read a book or something but I guess it's only two more days with students so I could survive.

I am ready for summer!!!!!!!!!!!

FYI Men are confusing as all crap