Not that I lack it in all areas of my life. There is one glaring area though that gets me in trouble all the time. I lack self-confidence around men. I never feel like I will be able to be in a relationship because I am not sure that I feel that I am actually worthy of being loved.
It is sad really. Job wise, complete confidence. I feel like I could conquer the world there. Also, I am proud of myself for making it on my own and being a pretty independent person. I just lack the confidence in relationships. I am pretty loud a lot and kind of an in your face person and I am not sure people like that. I like that about me but I think it rubs others the wrong way.
Advice? Please comment
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Worrying about Ike and trying to focus on work
So it looks like we might be evacuating again next week. This hurricane crap is ridiculous. It makes it very difficult to focus on the rest of life.
Tonight I am sitting at a coffee shop creating power points for work. I use the Saints as a way to teach geography to my kids. I saw it done when I was an undergrad and it worked beautifully. I have a large us map on the wall of my classroom and I stick a pin in NOLA and a pin in whatever city the Saints are playing in or against. I then use a string to connect the two places and mark it off with the distance. I create a short power point on the city they are playing to teach them a little geography about the place. I just created the power point for Tampa as that is who they are playing this week. Let me tell, nothing to interesting about Tampa. The next week the Saints play the Redskins so that has some more information about it. Thank goodness.
Cross your fingers for our city or pray or whatever you do. We need it.
Tonight I am sitting at a coffee shop creating power points for work. I use the Saints as a way to teach geography to my kids. I saw it done when I was an undergrad and it worked beautifully. I have a large us map on the wall of my classroom and I stick a pin in NOLA and a pin in whatever city the Saints are playing in or against. I then use a string to connect the two places and mark it off with the distance. I create a short power point on the city they are playing to teach them a little geography about the place. I just created the power point for Tampa as that is who they are playing this week. Let me tell, nothing to interesting about Tampa. The next week the Saints play the Redskins so that has some more information about it. Thank goodness.
Cross your fingers for our city or pray or whatever you do. We need it.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Back Home
So I am back home and am starting to get sick. I was with my sister all week who was running fever and had a cough and now I am starting to get a sore throat which doesn't really make me happy.
New Orleans is a bit of a mess. Last night I came and checked on my apartment and didn't have power. I slept at my dads. This morning I came back and am lucky enough to have power and cable. We are supposed to go back to work on Monday and I hope we do because I am getting slight cabin fever.
I was going to go grocery shopping today as I have no food in the house. We learned from Katrina to empty out freezers/refrigerators. But they are so under staffed at this point that there was a line out the door waiting. They would only let so many people in at one time. Maybe tomorrow I will do that. Today I was just not up for it.
There are downed power lines all over and traffic lights are kinda touch and go but hopefully everyday it will get better.
All eyes are on Ike now hoping it will leave us alone. We have had about all we can handle for the next 100 years.
New Orleans is a bit of a mess. Last night I came and checked on my apartment and didn't have power. I slept at my dads. This morning I came back and am lucky enough to have power and cable. We are supposed to go back to work on Monday and I hope we do because I am getting slight cabin fever.
I was going to go grocery shopping today as I have no food in the house. We learned from Katrina to empty out freezers/refrigerators. But they are so under staffed at this point that there was a line out the door waiting. They would only let so many people in at one time. Maybe tomorrow I will do that. Today I was just not up for it.
There are downed power lines all over and traffic lights are kinda touch and go but hopefully everyday it will get better.
All eyes are on Ike now hoping it will leave us alone. We have had about all we can handle for the next 100 years.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Ready to Go Home
I am still in Tallahassee. We are planning on leaving tomorrow (Thursday). I am ready to go now. Nagin decided to open the city basically because you have to drive through there to get anywhere else. I am just ready to go back home. I don't care if I don't have power. I am ready to go. Now.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
My Hurricane Gustav Story
After being back in New Orleans around 35 days, a hurricane was coming straight for me. Great. Back to evacuating. Almost three years to the day after Katrina.
For the story ... on Saturday I evacuated to Baton rouge to stay with my sister at her dorm at LSU. After being there for about three hours, I received a call from my mother telling us we had to come back and go with them to Tallahassee because it looked like it would be bad in BR. We drove back to Nola.
On sunday morning at 4am, we left for Tallahassee. Well the state of Mississippi sucks and closed I10 going east through their state. So we had to go north. We were on I59 in MS between exits 1 - 26 for 7 hours. In all, it took us all of 20 hours to drive from NOLA to Tallahassee. It was ridiculous.
We have now been in Tallahassee for a couple of days, I am not really sure how long. I have lost all sense of time. I am ready to leave. My dad is home and his parish opens in the morning at 6am. I think I am going to leave at midnight tonight. I am here with my mom and sister, etc. My mom will not come up with a plan. That pisses me off to no end. I need a plan so I think I will be taking off by myself.
I hate Nagin. We had a Cat 2 hurricane brush by us and I can't go to my damn house. What the hell is going on. I am glad the hurricane didn't hit us directly. He is an idiot. First he called it the storm of the century and now he is telling us we are going back to primitive conditions. AHH!!! Some people in the city actually have power so what the crap is he talking about. He sucks and I want to throw things at his head.
I am ready to go home.
For the story ... on Saturday I evacuated to Baton rouge to stay with my sister at her dorm at LSU. After being there for about three hours, I received a call from my mother telling us we had to come back and go with them to Tallahassee because it looked like it would be bad in BR. We drove back to Nola.
On sunday morning at 4am, we left for Tallahassee. Well the state of Mississippi sucks and closed I10 going east through their state. So we had to go north. We were on I59 in MS between exits 1 - 26 for 7 hours. In all, it took us all of 20 hours to drive from NOLA to Tallahassee. It was ridiculous.
We have now been in Tallahassee for a couple of days, I am not really sure how long. I have lost all sense of time. I am ready to leave. My dad is home and his parish opens in the morning at 6am. I think I am going to leave at midnight tonight. I am here with my mom and sister, etc. My mom will not come up with a plan. That pisses me off to no end. I need a plan so I think I will be taking off by myself.
I hate Nagin. We had a Cat 2 hurricane brush by us and I can't go to my damn house. What the hell is going on. I am glad the hurricane didn't hit us directly. He is an idiot. First he called it the storm of the century and now he is telling us we are going back to primitive conditions. AHH!!! Some people in the city actually have power so what the crap is he talking about. He sucks and I want to throw things at his head.
I am ready to go home.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
My Sister and other random ramblings
My sister is going through rush right now at LSU and it feels like I am going through rush. I am in a sorority so have done it all before and wish I could be with her while she goes through it. Keep your fingers crossed ... her tops are still in there. School is going well. I like my students and my coworkers (the ones I have met at least) so I am pretty happy about that. I do miss my old coworkers though. Men. They suck. That is all I have to say on the subject. Oh and today i got really excited because I actually heard someone say in real life yourmommaandthem. It made me happy.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Exhausted
So the first two days of school have kicked my butt. Being in a different state this year makes me have to adjust my expectations. I am teaching the next grade up this year and some things they know way more than my kids last year but somethings that my kids knew by the end of last year they just seem rather lost.
I really like the new school. I am just pretty tired and the afternoon is way too long. After lunch we have three hours until dismissal. That is way too long of an afternoon especially when the kids are looking at me like they are going to die of boredom and tiredness.
I am a few kids that I am trying to pull out of their shells but havent figured it out yet. I have a little boy who is so shy he won't come out of his shell at all and I just want to try to get him to open up. He seems smart from the work I have seen him do so far I just wish he would interact with me and the other kids more. We shall see.
I really like the new school. I am just pretty tired and the afternoon is way too long. After lunch we have three hours until dismissal. That is way too long of an afternoon especially when the kids are looking at me like they are going to die of boredom and tiredness.
I am a few kids that I am trying to pull out of their shells but havent figured it out yet. I have a little boy who is so shy he won't come out of his shell at all and I just want to try to get him to open up. He seems smart from the work I have seen him do so far I just wish he would interact with me and the other kids more. We shall see.
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