Hour 15

It has been 15 hours since I ripped up my cigarettes. For a good portion of these 15 hours I was sleeping but now I am awake and bouncing around trying to find something to do to control myself. I went to the gym about two hours after waking up and then went to the drugstore for some sour patch kids to eat instead of smoking. I am now reading a book. I have a meeting to go to in two hours so at least that will be less time at home.

Which day is harder when quitting smoking? Is the first day the hardest or not?

8 Cigarettes Away and 9 Days Away

So I definitely though I Sunday when I bought the nictotine gum that I would be chewing it by Tuesday or today (Wednesday.) Not so. Apparently I donn't smoke as many cigarettes a day as I thought I did or I have slowed done to try to savor them for as long as possible. I have discoved over the past 4 days that I only smoke an average of 7 cigarettes a day during the week. It really helps that I can't smoke at work. So it looks like Friday will be quitting time. That stresses me out a little because I always smoke more on the weekends but I am going to do this and get through it. I know I can. I have overcome many hurdles in the past two years and know that this is the last major one that effects my health (I am sure there will be many more hurdles in others facets in my life.)

Just 9 more days with my lovely second graders in the dusty school. It's crazy to know that I have made it through my second year of teaching and will be doing it again next year. I had some challanges this year but overcame them. I will be switching to a brand new school (still being built) and I am really pumped about that but really nervous at the same time because I truely have no idea what to expect. The good thing is I will still be teaching second grade so there won't be too many surprises curriculm wise.

I am going crazy lately at school. Serious summer ADD is kicking in. I wonder if I could even function in a job where I would have to work all year long. Who knows. I will be teaching summer school and I will have about a week and a half break before that kicks in to gear for five weeks.

8 more cigarettes, 9 more days. It is my mantra.

I Want to Be A Quitter

So today I made an interesting purchase while I was at CVS. I made the decision a few weeks ago to quit smoking on May 23rd. Well, I decided I might as well not buy another carton of cigarettes and just buy the gum instead. So today I bought nicotine gum. I have about a pack and a half of cigarettes left that I am going to finish smoking so by Tuesday or Wednesday I will be a using the gum and be in a wonderful mood (I am trying positive self talk.) I am really stressed out about it though because I don't want to fail at it. My smoking is a lot of random habits. Knowing when I light up on the way to work, smoking when I am talking on the phone, etc. My mom said that if I could lose 80lbs like I did, then I should be able to quit smoking. I look back on losing all that weight and think about how easy it was. Hopefully I will be able to look back on quitting smoking and think about how easy that was as well.