Where I will end up

Have you ever felt like you have no idea where you will end up in a few years?

I want to do so many things but feel like I have no way to accomplish them.

I want to buy a house. No down payment. I am pissed that I have a job and can't even be independent and afford my own house. Pisses me off.

I am dating a new guy. I don't think its going to work long term. I don't see how it could. He is great and awesome and makes me happy for now but there are too many things that I ideally would change so I am just not sure.

I want to get a hobby. What hobby not a clue. Any hobby ideas?