Back to myself

So I finally am returning to my old self. Focusing on me and not sitting around waiting for the phone to ring when I know in all reality it probably will ring but it won't be top chef. Write that one off. Anyways ... how did I get back to my old self today. Well I woke up at 8 and went to the gym. Then I came home and padded around for a bit and went to Kohl's and bought myself two pairs of capris and a shirt. I think I now must have like 20 pairs of pants which kinda of almost seems excessive ... but not quite. I have been reading all day again. I am about to finish a book that I just started this morning. A suspense novel I guess you would call it. Also on the getting back to me note, I have been counting all my points and everything for weight watchers and actually paying attention to what I have been eating.

On Friday night, I am planning a dinner to go and eat the best food ever .... SUSHI!!!! It should be great hopefully I can get a few of my friends to join Chris and I. Then, on either Saturday or Sunday we will go to Universal. I bought the tickets today thanks to my mom. I am sure it will be fun. Except I don't like roller coasters and am sure I will be dragged on them unwillingly. I just always think they are going to break.

The grammy's come on soon so I think I will be watching that with a vague interest. Who knows maybe it will be really cool. I remember my favorite grammy performance from the past when Eminem and Elton John sang "Stan." I thought that was great. Who knows. I am ready for work tomorrow and to make it through the week.

Tuesday

So it's Tuesday and I haven't been to the gym since LAST wednesday. That's a long time for me. Hopefully my head will clear up (I can feel the pressure) so I can go in the morning but who knows.

Psycho is getting worse. Its just like I don't think we would even be good friends because we have nothing in common but he thinks we have EVERYTHING in common but he really has no idea who I am. I am getting sick of his shit but am kinda scared he is going to do something crazy because I was really bruttally honest today and laid everything on the line and told him I didn't think we should be friends (for the 7000 time) but who knows. Always the crazies.

On a less crazy note, hopefully, I have a date on Saturday with a guy who is 24 and a chef. He called today and seems really cool. Hopefully it will be fun! We shall see.

Cold Monday

So I live in sunny Florida right? Not suppose to be cold. Well today it didn't get about 57 degrees and tonight it is suppose to get in the 20s. WHAT THE HELL? I thought Florida was always sunny and great. It is messing with my sicknesses as well. I get a little better and then all of a sudden my head feels like it is going to explode because the pressure keeps changing. It sucks.

What else sucks about it being cold? Well my grade level is the only grade level that sits outside from 7:30 - 8 before we take them into the classroom. Well obviously I don't want my kids to freeze but then we have to take them in as soon as they get there. We are the only grade that has to do this because the rest of the grades are inside. Can't we figure out another place to put them??? It just kind of messes up my whole morning routine which leaves me feeling out of whack for a couple of hours until my planning and I can regroup.

Tomorrow I am going to try to get up early and go and workout. I am not feeling perfect but I feel that if I don't get in the gym it is going to break my great cycle that I had going. Since I have been sick I haven't worked out since Wednesday.

On the dating side of things, I have been talking to a guy that seems really cool and hopefully it will work out. I don't want to jinx it though!

Day off and why I love MTVs Afternoon Sneak

Today I had off because of MLK day. So that was nice. I went to the gym even though I told myself I wouldn't. I feel some strong magnetism pulling me toward the gym which I guess is a good thing. I hope I can get up tomorrow at 5am and work out before work. It gives me more energy for the day and then I don't have to rush right out of work to go to the gym. I have a parent conference at 4:15 tomorrow so I will need to be staying there later than usually anyway.

Onto MTVs Afternoon Sneak. I love it. They show their shows that come on at 10pm here (damn EST) at 430. So I have already gotten to see the Hills (such a guilty pleasure) as well as Dance Life which has the makings of a pretty good show.

I need to get energy for tomorrow. I meant to work on some things this weekend for school but really didn't. Since I have to stay late anyway I can probably get some work done then.

Cross your fingers that I can go to bed before 9 so I can get up at 5 to go and bust my butt (somewhat) at the gym before work.

Saints, Coffee, and the Beach

So who hoo for the Saints. I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown during the game. We went to Beef o Bradys to watch it and at the end of the game I am pacing around the resturant. I keep watching sports center and keep seeing the same replays over and over again. I keep thinking they are going to reverse something (I know not possible) but the Cinderella story seems too good to be true.

Coffee. When I ask someone to go get coffee it is not neccessarily to just go drink coffee. It is a great place to go just sit around, have a beverage, smoke cigarettes, and chat about life. Sometimes I don't think people understand that and they think it is all about coffee. Not true. If they ever lived in the Harahan/Ridge area they would understand about getting coffee. I sure do miss PJs. You could just go up there and almost always find someone to talk to. No matter what you were going to talk about it didn't matter. If you were bored that was the place to go. There is no such place here.

The beach. So I asked my friend if she wanted to go get coffee because last night we had talked about hanging out today and I get a text message back that says her and another friend (a girl I also know) are going to Clearwater (the beach.) Now wouldn't it have been cooler if they had asked me if I wanted to joing them. Maybe I once gave them the impression that I hated the beach maybe I said it but they could have asked you know? Its kinda frustrating and not the first time it has happened.

Well, at least I am off of work tomorrow. I went to the gym already today and went like a crazy person on the elliptical. We shall see what the rest of the day holds.

Getting up at 5am and dating

For the last three days I have been getting up at 5 and going to the gym. It has been good and has given me a lot of energy through the day though by 8:15pm I am asleep. But I do like working out in the mornings better because then I know that I have already got them in for the day and don't have to plan around them in the evenings.

So the guy I was dating just stopped contacting me today. He used to email me at work yadda yadda. So I guess thats over. That is what I wanted but now it feels weird to have no one to talk to and "hang" with. Oh well!