Running in 90 degree weather

So I got really bored this evening because I haven't left my apartment at all today because there is really nothing to do here. Well around 6, I decided I was not going to be a fat ass and I was going to go running/walking. I have this strange obsession with trying to be a runner even though I don't think I will ever be because I can't get that in through your nose out through your mouth thing down. It's batty. Anyway, so I did that for about 45 minutes and it is damn hot. It is theraputic though to put on my ipod and run/walk and be away from the leash of a cell phone. I am going to get back into working out 6 days a week like I used to. I am on a mission to lose 10 pounds.

New Mantra

I refuse to base my happiness on other people's actions because I can't control other people.

Lazy Saturday

I am having a very lazy Saturday. I am not sure what to do today. I guess I could go get a pedicure or something but I am just not feeling like getting dressed. I should relish the weekend I guess and just let myself be a lazy bum. Any ideas?

Yesterday's happy hour was crazy. Got smashed with a whole bunch of other teachers and then our AP shows up. I was trying to convince her that i was responsible enough to be grade chair. We shall see if I get that now. I did get to meet a whole bunch of people from school that I have always known but never really took the chance to get to know and now I know that they are actually cool people and that I want to actually take the time to get to know them now.

Longest Day Ever

I am sitting at school at what feels like the longest day ever. We didn't have specials today so I haven't been away from the kids at all and they are all riled up because it is the end of the year. We had an awards ceremony and they did some worksheets. Now they are watching Monsters Inc. I have about an hour and thirty minutes left because I leave early today to get to my WW meeting across the county. I don't know if I am going to keep my sanity. And it is not even Friday yet. Crazy. I am just restless and ready to get out of here.

2nd movie of the day

We are now watching out 2nd movie of the day. The kids have lost their minds. They keep asking me if tomorrow is the last day of school ... it is in fact not. At least this movie has educational value. We read them The Indian in the Cupboard and are now watching the movie to compare and contrast it. Gives me some time to put things together.

I hae two weight watchers meetings tonight to lead. This is my long day. I am not to tired so I am feeling pretty good about having to work for so long.

Working ... Supposedly

So here I am at work with 15 little children around me and we are watching Hercules as opposed to doing any work. Really do I have to do this for 6 more days? I am getting a little tired of inane nonsense. I have never had to be in a school after Memorial Day and it just feels wrong.

I have figured out that even though I think I am really good at reading people and what they are thinking that I actually really suck at it. I never know what other people are thinking unless they come out and tell me and so I constantly am wondering. I hate when people just won't say what they are thinking. I probably don't as much as I should. AHHH!!!!

My students are clapping now because Hercules and the woman are kissing and now it is over. So I guess I shall go and figure out something to do.

Working ... Supposedly

So here I am at work with 15 little children around me and we are watching Hercules as opposed to doing any work. Really do I have to do this for 6 more days? I am getting a little tired of inane nonsense. I have never had to be in a school after Memorial Day and it just feels wrong.

I have figured out that even though I think I am really good at reading people and what they are thinking that I actually really suck at it. I never know what other people are thinking unless they come out and tell me and so I constantly am wondering. I hate when people just won't say what they are thinking. I probably don't as much as I should. AHHH!!!!

My students are clapping now because Hercules and the woman are kissing and now it is over. So I guess I shall go and figure out something to do.

Memorial Day

It was very nice to be off of work today and just really have nothing to do at all. I have been tired and my throat is hurting a bit so it was good to just relax. Only 6 more working days of kids and then i will be on my summer break and I am so excited. I will still be doing my meeting for weight watchers so at least I will still be making some extra money but I will be able to do nothing a lot which is nice. I am going home the last week of June and am thinking of going somewhere in July but the place is tbd.

Laziness

So I am having an extremley lazy weekend. Just hanging out and watching tv and being a bum. I have off of work Monday but actually wish I had to go so I could get rid of the kids sooner. June 3rd and they will be gone ... thank goodness for the summer. I think any job I would ever have would need to involve some extended time off just like teaching. It gives me time to recuperate and such.

Working

At work today ... didn't exactly make it here yesterday. So I am bored at my lanning time bc my partner in crime is out on professional development. I had one crazy weekend. And it's so weird to meet people that you think you could really be friends with and then they just leave (es if they are just here on vacay) I mean that really sucks you know. I am just very down and out today and don't know how I am going to make it through the next 9 days of work. If it was a normal school year we would be getting out this week, but since they changed the schedule we don't get out until June 4th and that makes me a tad unhappy. I am just very cranky today. And it is raining so that means no outdoor recess which means the kids start going a little bit crazy. Oh well, hopefully it will be okay.

It's been awhile

So it's been awhile but not a whole lot has changed in my life. I am still making stupid desicions because I have such a low self esteem that I sometimes do dumb things to try to make myself feel better. It doesn't. In fact, it has the opposite effect. I am not sure why I do this to myself. I need to make better choices.

How do you know when you love someone? How do you find someone that is your so called soul mate? Shouldn't they been around already?