Monday, June 16, 2008

Sad but Accomplished

So I have gone 24 hours without a cigarette. Is every day going to be this hard? It hasn't been the worst day or anything but it certainly hasn't been easy. When does it get easier? I only wish I could find out. Everyone says different things so I am not exactly sure.

Sad today because I realized that some things are just not meant to work out. No matter how much you want them to, they are doomed from the start. I have that horrible punched in the gut feeling all of a sudden.

And now I am crying. Nice. Laughing and crying all at the same time. I feel screwed. I don't know. AHHHHH. You know some people may just be meant to be single smokers forever. Who knows.