Tuesday

So it's Tuesday and I haven't been to the gym since LAST wednesday. That's a long time for me. Hopefully my head will clear up (I can feel the pressure) so I can go in the morning but who knows.

Psycho is getting worse. Its just like I don't think we would even be good friends because we have nothing in common but he thinks we have EVERYTHING in common but he really has no idea who I am. I am getting sick of his shit but am kinda scared he is going to do something crazy because I was really bruttally honest today and laid everything on the line and told him I didn't think we should be friends (for the 7000 time) but who knows. Always the crazies.

On a less crazy note, hopefully, I have a date on Saturday with a guy who is 24 and a chef. He called today and seems really cool. Hopefully it will be fun! We shall see.

Cold Monday

So I live in sunny Florida right? Not suppose to be cold. Well today it didn't get about 57 degrees and tonight it is suppose to get in the 20s. WHAT THE HELL? I thought Florida was always sunny and great. It is messing with my sicknesses as well. I get a little better and then all of a sudden my head feels like it is going to explode because the pressure keeps changing. It sucks.

What else sucks about it being cold? Well my grade level is the only grade level that sits outside from 7:30 - 8 before we take them into the classroom. Well obviously I don't want my kids to freeze but then we have to take them in as soon as they get there. We are the only grade that has to do this because the rest of the grades are inside. Can't we figure out another place to put them??? It just kind of messes up my whole morning routine which leaves me feeling out of whack for a couple of hours until my planning and I can regroup.

Tomorrow I am going to try to get up early and go and workout. I am not feeling perfect but I feel that if I don't get in the gym it is going to break my great cycle that I had going. Since I have been sick I haven't worked out since Wednesday.

On the dating side of things, I have been talking to a guy that seems really cool and hopefully it will work out. I don't want to jinx it though!

Stupid Bear Fans

So I have seen this image many times today and it makes me sick. Check this out:

http://www.snopes.com/photos/signs/chicagobears.asp

Lazy Sunday

So Sunday has been extremley lazy today. I have done pretty much nothing except watch tv, down airborne, and motrin. Feeling okay but not perfect. Hoping I feel better tomorrow but it is suppose to be cold and the high is only suppose to be 58. Then after work, I have to go to an ESOL class that should last til around 7:15. I want to go work out in the morning but I am guessing I should wait to make sure I definitely feel better. We shall see.

Nelly Furtado "Say it Right"

I have a new favorite song. I was watching MTV last night and after a show is over they also have this little download this thingy and it was the Nelly Furtado song "Say it Right." It is awesome!!! It reminds me of something from a long time ago, I just don't know what. Anyway it rocks and I love it and now it is my ringtone! Download it!

Creepy or Sweet?

So the guy that I WAS (as it used to be) dating did something that I am not sure is sweet or creepy. Keep in mind he lives almost an hour away from me. So I have been sick yesterday and today. I still went to work so it couldn't have been that horrible but I have been hacking. My away message on AIM said "sick" He ims me and ask me how I am doing. I say fine whatever if my students would learn how to cover their mouths when they coughed I would be fine. So I am sitting at my computer working on professional development and I get a text message on my phone that says "hey i just left some stuff on your door step I hope you feel better" I open my door and there is diet coke, roses, two cans of chicken noodle soup, a bottle of riesling, airborne, a magazine, and a dvd. So is this weird? So I text him and told him he could have knocked but he just says hope you feel better. Is this sweet or creepy????? AHHHH!!!! I am just a tad freaked out.

Cinderella Season Over

So it is sad that the Cinderella season is over. The Saints definitely had a great year though. The first team with 13 or more losses in one year to make it to the Championship game in the next. I think the season helped give the city some hope during a really rough time. Closest we came in 40 years. I feel bad for the players but Chicago just brought it today. There is always next year because I feel that we will be in contention again!

2nd quarter Saints/Chicago

Doesn't look like the Saints are going to be coming to visit me in sunny florida. I slept through the first hour of the game because I decided to take a nap a 230. Oh well probably better that way. They just can't get shit done on offense and the look like they don't know what they are doing. I guess the pressure and cold weather is getting to them. Oh well. I think I might turn it off.

The Saints are Coming ....

Hopefully ... Hopefully the Saints will come to visit me in Florida. My mom is in Chicago now on pins and neetles. I am so stressed out. I hope they win but it all seems a little to go to be true. Or maybe thats while they will win. A real life Cinderella story. I don't now. CBS sportsline is picking the bears but everyone on ESPN (which I have been watching all morning) is picking the Saints. It already snowed in Chicago this morning but not to much and it looked like they had a tarp on the field. Hopefully it all works out. I am going to be stressed until about 6pm.

Mid 20s

The other day my friend Virginia was over and she brought it to my attention that she was now in her mid 20s (she turned 25 in december.) So that leads me to the question .... I am 24 about to turn 25 in February, am I in my mid 20's? I always considered myself in my early 20s still. When do you cross that boundary into the mid 20s? And then from there when do you become in your late 20s? I am starting to feel real old.

Sleeping and My mom has lost it

So I didn't get to really sleep at all last night and that kinda sucked. I woke up like every hour so I decided not to go work out this morning. I hope to go work out tomorrow morning.

So my mom called me today (never does I always have to call her) and says guess where I am going. I think for a minute and I say Chicago. And she says yep. Apparently she called her friend who lives there and has tickets just to chat and the woman invited my mom up there to go to the game. My mom happened to be able to get a flight (on a free ticket as well) so will be going up to Chicago on Friday to get ready to freeze her ass off at the game Sunday. My mom is nuts.

Day off and why I love MTVs Afternoon Sneak

Today I had off because of MLK day. So that was nice. I went to the gym even though I told myself I wouldn't. I feel some strong magnetism pulling me toward the gym which I guess is a good thing. I hope I can get up tomorrow at 5am and work out before work. It gives me more energy for the day and then I don't have to rush right out of work to go to the gym. I have a parent conference at 4:15 tomorrow so I will need to be staying there later than usually anyway.

Onto MTVs Afternoon Sneak. I love it. They show their shows that come on at 10pm here (damn EST) at 430. So I have already gotten to see the Hills (such a guilty pleasure) as well as Dance Life which has the makings of a pretty good show.

I need to get energy for tomorrow. I meant to work on some things this weekend for school but really didn't. Since I have to stay late anyway I can probably get some work done then.

Cross your fingers that I can go to bed before 9 so I can get up at 5 to go and bust my butt (somewhat) at the gym before work.

Honesty

I AM SO PISSED OFF. This guy is making me crazy. He thinks I am mean because I told him I didn't see anything happening between us and somehow my honesty makes me a bad person.

I am so honest with my friends, sometimes brutally, and they know it and expect it. I think they also appreciate my honesty. I would I appreciate honesty. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Sending someone off the deep end

So I think I have sent someone off the deep end. This guy I dated for a few weeks seems to have completely lost it. Last night after telling him during the day that it wasn't going to work out I must have recieved thirty text messages from him (I wasn't responding) during the Saints game. Then after I get home he keeps telling me how he is coming over to bring me flowers and diet coke and I literally had to beg him not to come. So today I havn't heard from him at all until I sign onto myspace and he has a bulletin talked about f everyone yadda yadda yadda. He is 34. F@*&ing get a life. Quite honestly grow the hell up. We have all been through shit in our lives and we are all getting along just fine without using myspace as a weapon. AHHHHHH!!!!! I finally meet someone and he has to be crazy. Figures!

Boredom

Boredom has set in. I am watching the Bears/Seahawks about to go into OT pulling for Seattle so that the Saints could play at home next weekend. I guess it helps to have the 12th man on d (the crowd) my mom says her ears were ringing for hours after last nights game. Oh well ... we shall see what comes of this.

Saints, Coffee, and the Beach

So who hoo for the Saints. I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown during the game. We went to Beef o Bradys to watch it and at the end of the game I am pacing around the resturant. I keep watching sports center and keep seeing the same replays over and over again. I keep thinking they are going to reverse something (I know not possible) but the Cinderella story seems too good to be true.

Coffee. When I ask someone to go get coffee it is not neccessarily to just go drink coffee. It is a great place to go just sit around, have a beverage, smoke cigarettes, and chat about life. Sometimes I don't think people understand that and they think it is all about coffee. Not true. If they ever lived in the Harahan/Ridge area they would understand about getting coffee. I sure do miss PJs. You could just go up there and almost always find someone to talk to. No matter what you were going to talk about it didn't matter. If you were bored that was the place to go. There is no such place here.

The beach. So I asked my friend if she wanted to go get coffee because last night we had talked about hanging out today and I get a text message back that says her and another friend (a girl I also know) are going to Clearwater (the beach.) Now wouldn't it have been cooler if they had asked me if I wanted to joing them. Maybe I once gave them the impression that I hated the beach maybe I said it but they could have asked you know? Its kinda frustrating and not the first time it has happened.

Well, at least I am off of work tomorrow. I went to the gym already today and went like a crazy person on the elliptical. We shall see what the rest of the day holds.

Drinking on a Friday

No longer a loser on a friday night. Well maybe kinda a loser. Virginia came over and we went to Publix and got wine and beer and have been enjoying ourselves since. She just left because we are tired. I am sure I won't feel to well tomorrow. Oh well, we shall see.

Friday Nights

Friday nights make me feel like a loser. It is not even eight o'clock and I am in my pajamas being a bum. But Virginia is about to come over and hang so that is cool. I have just been so tired lately because I get up so early and go to the gym (which really gets me going for the day fyi.) But at least it is a long weekend.

Oh how I hope the Saints win tomorrow but I just don't really see it in the cards. I guess I am a pessimist but it all seems to good to be true. I guess we shall see!

Weight Loss

AHHHHH!!!!!! I WANT TO GET TO MY GOAL AND IT FEELS IMPOSSIBLE. This week I haven't been eating great but have been busting my butt at the gym (maybe?) but I am gaining. Not a lot and my clothes fit better so maybe it is just muscle. I don't know but I am so frustrated.

Getting up at 5am and dating

For the last three days I have been getting up at 5 and going to the gym. It has been good and has given me a lot of energy through the day though by 8:15pm I am asleep. But I do like working out in the mornings better because then I know that I have already got them in for the day and don't have to plan around them in the evenings.

So the guy I was dating just stopped contacting me today. He used to email me at work yadda yadda. So I guess thats over. That is what I wanted but now it feels weird to have no one to talk to and "hang" with. Oh well!

Yellow Lights

So yesterday I was driving from school to the gym and I was making a left onto a major street and the light was yellow so I went though it. About a mile down the road I get pulled over by a police officer and I recieved a ticket for running a RED light. I am such a safe driver I never would run a red light. I was pissed. It's going to cost me almost $200 and I am just a poor teacher but my parents are going to help me out which is cool.

This morning I was feeling highly motivated and went to the gym at 5am. I liked it and it gave me energy all day long (well, except for now, I am kinda tired.) But I am going to try to go back again tomorrow morning again because I like having my afternoons free. We shall see.

Sundays

Sundays are really lazy days. I have done nothing all day. There is nothing on tv so I am watching Laguna Season 2 DVD. I must have seen every episode at least 5 - 10 times but I still enjoy it! Tomorrow back to work for a full week of work. I took off the weekend from working out so I am going to go in full force next week. Last week I went three times and I think that is a good amount. I would like to go at least 4 or 5 times a week though.

Tomorrow at my school we are weighing in for our Biggest Loser competition ... hopefully I will win because I need the cash BIG TIME!!!

I am a bad person

I am officially a bad person. So this guy likes me and I don't really think I like him yet I continue to hang out with him and such just because its someone to hang out with. How wrong is this???

Last night I realized how much of a light weight I am now when it comes to drinking. I can barely drink anything now and I just get loopy and emotional. Crazy times. So today I am just hanging out and being tired. I had to go to CVS twice this morning already because the dumb pharmicist misplaced one of my prescriptions. She was being such a bitch the first time I was there. I ws like can't you look for it harder. And she was like no all we can do is page the doctor. So then I come home and a hour later they call me and tell me they have the prescription and they are so sorry. I knew you had it idiots. That's why I told you to look. Dumb people.

Blogging

So because of Chris, I will start a blog as well and hopefully we can return to the old days of dead journal when life was simplier and everyday was spent at PJ's. But, a blog is probably not that powerful. I don't have any witty commentairies to say right now.

Wait just thought of something!!!

Why do guys feel the need to hold on to you while you're trying to sleep. Quite frankly, your arm is heavy and it is just squiching me and there is no way in hell I could sleep like this. Sure its cute to cuddle but when it is time to go to sleep go to your side of the bed. Stay away from my side!!!!