Saturday Night and I ain't got nobody ....

Its an old song ... so boring Saturday night ... I had an invite to go drink at a resturant with my friend and her boyfriend but it didn't really seem all that appetizing ... rather enjoy a couple of glasses of wine at home ... the Florida vs UCLA game is really boring becuase Fl is pulling away big time. I guess it will be a repeat of the football championship game this year (or last 2006 whatever.) Anyway have to go back to work on Monday which I am sure will be a shock but I guess if I worked a normal type job I wouldn't have amazing holidays like I do as a teacher. I should be thankful. I will be happy though to get back to normal routine.

Saturday Morning

So it is early Saturday morning. around 8am, and I am already up and dressed so I can go to the gym. Fun times. Hopefully something more adventurous will go on this weekend then just outings to the gym. Who knows. I am tired tired tired. Hopefully I wake up soon!

Can't feel legs

I think the biggest lesson I learned today was that you shouldn't take bodypump two days in a row. My legs are killing me and I just left the class an hour ago. Doesn't really bode well for tomorrow.

I need a project. I want to motivate someone to lose lots of weight and go to the gym with me so I can feel like I am passing my weight loss on to someone else. Sounds weird I know but I like to be thought of as someone's motivation. I think I have been a few people's motivation with weight watchers so that feels good.

Now my mom is giving me crap about smoking. "If you are changing everything else and becoming healthy you should quit smoking." Hum ... sounds like a good idea in theory but I have a feeling it would throw my body out of wack big time. It is a thought though.

MY LEGS!!!!

I am lazy ... somewhat

So had to get up early (9) this morning to go tot the dentist. 2 cavaties filled and have to go back tomorrow to get 2 more filled. After that I need to go to the eye doctor because I need more contacts. Big time crazy. So much money spent and not much of it to spend. Its crazy being a teacher and barely making enough money to get by. My mom said I needed a roommate and I in turn laughed that off as definitely not an option unless down the road I meet a guy and decided to live with him. That's a long way off since I haven't met a guy I really was into in a long time. I am content in my little apartment being selfish.

On the gym side, I went and worked out again today. Took body pump again. Love the class except when I have to do squats and lunges. They make me feel weak and I don't love that. Bought a cute workout outfit today so I could show off my new body. I am truely proud of myself for changing my whole lifestyle and becoming a new and improved me. Not to toot my own horn or anything lol.

Now I just have to get a handle on my life so I can fix mistakes from the past. Mainly debt that I put myself in that my parents are so great to help me get out of. Ahhh. Tired.

Got it!

So I got the job. It was a lateral transfer so I think they were hiring anyone that seemed someone competant. It seems like a good gig although another teacher who is staying at the school I currently am at was guilt tripping me a little bit for leaving but I just feel like I need to do what is important for me. I am going to be teaching either 2nd or 3rd grade next year. Not sure which.

Off to a class at the gym now. Got to work on my fitness.

Nervous

So in about an hour I will be sitting in a interview for a job at a new school in my county. Its not that I am trying to get into a new county, it's basically like making a lateral transfer. I am a little nervous how i come across because sometimes I not sure if I come across that well. I have been up for about two hours now and am just exhausted. I really hope I get this because I think it is an amazing oppurtunity to be on a team that is the first faculty of a brand new school. I would love this and think it would help me grow professionally as well. We shall see. Cross your fingers.

Stress

I am going on a job interview tomorrow and am completely stressed. I am going for a job for next year at a new school they are opening close to me. My friend from work got a job their today and from what she was saying, it sounds like a place I want to be. I am very stressed out about it as I normally do get very stressed. I am excited because it would be a great oppurtunity to be able to go into a brand new school and help bring that school into something great. We shall see.

Saturday Night Live and Peyton Manning

So I watched SNL last night because my mom sent me an article talking about how Peyton Manning was going to be the host. First off, SNL sucks now. Just really not that funny. I like Peyton Manning though. I thought the funniest skit was when it was a NCAA tourney bracket filler outters winners and it was him (acting as a reporter), a host, and a girl who also had a high performing bracket. It was funny and the funniest part was when they started talking about how one of the good teams who lost pulled a "Peyton Manning." Its good to see celebrity people being able to make fun of themselves. Another weird thing, he introduced his family during the opening monologue but didn't introduce his brother Cooper, who doesn't play football due to an earlier injury. So I assumed Cooper wasn't there, but at the end Cooper and Eli pushed out a bday cake for Peyton. Kinda weird they left him out. In the Manning family, as you get worse as football you get cuter. Peyton is the best and not so good looking, Eli is not as good as Peyton as football but better looking, and then you have Cooper who doesn't play football anymore but is the cutest of all. Just something you learn growing up in NOLA and growing up always knowing who the Mannings are.

Spring Break

So I am on spring break. I am still in my apartment but at least I will be off of school next week which is really cool. Last night on whim I decided to dye my hair an auburn color. It is cool. Just trying to get used to it. Had drinks with friends last night and had a good time. This morning, I went to the gym and took a class. Now I am getting ready to go into Orlando to go eat good sushi and watch a hibachi show. Hopefully it will be fun. We shall see.

Blah

I am feeling so incredibly blah right now. I am not exactly sure why I am feeling this way. The professional development today and yesterday was extremely informative and I feel like I can definitely get on board with it. BUT, and I don't mean to sound lazy, but it is such a massive undertaking. It scares me. I am just not sure and am feeling a little freaked out by it all. I also am about to be on spring break but all of my friends are taking off somewhere rather it be for work or just vacay. I would have liked to go home but I am here dealing with dentist appointments, eye doctor appointments, etc. It is kinda scary being an adult esp. so far from your support system. I just am confused right now and am not sure where I am going ... not even really where I have been exactly so its all a little overwhelming. Work tomorrow so I need to stop obssessing and go to bed.

Friendships Lost

I think one of the hardest things about growing up (yes I still consider myself to be growing up) is friendships lost. Sometimes without even having the knowledge of why they ended. I am kinda sick of this happening to me. I realize a lot of times it is my own damn fault but I feel like if people really cared about me they would make me see what I was doing wrong that made them want to end the friendship and then I could work to correct it. If it wasn't something I could control or didn't choose to change then the friendship would be over. I miss friendships that I have lost. I truely cared about these people but was acting strange when these friendships ended and that ended them for good. Sometimes I wish these people would just reach out to me and talk to me. Oh well ... you live you learn.

Tired

Yes I am tired. I didn't even have to see my kids today and am exhausted. I stayed up later than normal last night just watching tv and then today was in an inservice which can be more draining then dealing with kids. Good ideas just draining. Tomorrow I will be in the same inservice. Then Friday and next week spring break which for me means not a whole lot. Just hanging around and relaxing no drinking and partying it up. Feeling a lot like Chris does here.

Still highly motivated about the gym. Went Sunday to a class, Monday to a class, Tuesday we walked, and I just got home from a class today. Hopefully I will build some muscle and the muscle can then in turn eat my fat. I think I am going to go watch Work Out that I taped last night for some more motivation. I want to be only 3% body fat ... don't think thats going to happen LOL!

Randomness

Random thoughts ...

1. I feel like everyone around me is moving on with their life and I am just stagnet. I mean I moved here only a year ago (almost) but I haven't really done anything else to further myself or to get to where I feel I need to be. I don't really know where that is but I do feel like I am not moving on.

2. Good show I watched today on A&E. King of Cars. Hilarious show. Random ... as I like it.

3. I went and took a class today at the gym and sweat my butt off. I love to sweat.

4. One week of school before spring break. I am not sure that I could have a job that didn't have amazing holidays. Maybe, it's just the type of job I am in that leaves me feeling stressed and tired.

5. What am I doing with my life? Am I too focused on myself? Is that a bad thing at 25? Do I not go out enough and try to meet new people (I have never been good at this)? AHHHHHH!!!!

Saturday Night

So not a whole lot going on today. Ended up napping and then going to the grocery. Then I got bored and decided to go shopping. I went and spent almost 200 dollars on clothes. I was excited because a pair of pants I bought was a size 8. WHOO HOO!!! Now I aspire to be a six. Don't think its going to happen but maybe.

I just read an article in Glamour about how women cut alcohol completely out and ended up losing weight. I think I might try this to help my lose this 10 lbs that is bothering me. Hopefully the working out is helping as well.

I watched True Life: I have Autism on MTV today. It was touching. It made me think about how maybe I should stay a teacher but maybe move back to special ed because I felt like I made such a bigger impact there. It repeats itself tomorrow night on MTV at 9pm/8c. I think it is good to watch especially for people who have never been around people who have a disability. It did bother me that they didn't use people first language though. You can read about people first from Kathie Snow here.

St. Patty's Day

Happy St. Patty's Day! My sis is riding in the Irish Channel St. Pat's parade so my whole family is down there and I am kinda sad that I am missing it. Here its not so exciting. Don't think I will be going out for the holiday. Last night Virginia and I had our Friday night routine (beer and wine) and then I got up early and went to ww and then to a class at the gym called body pump. Love it. I am feeling highly motivated lately. I was kinda thinking maybe I want to come home for Spring Break but that is in a week and don't know if a trip can be planned that quickly. As for the rest of the day, I hope to get motivated and go shopping but who knows.

Is it Friday yet?

Ahh ... today all day it felt like Friday which doesn't bode well when I have to get up tomorrow and go to work. Oh well. At least tomorrow really is Friday and I have a few days to relax and then one week and spring break. One of the good things about being a teacher is the great holidays.

Today went pretty well at work. Came home early watched tv and then went walking around my complex. I have been pretty motivated about working out. I figured out the key to motivation is to not be in a relationship, no kids, and have friends that are also busy and then you will always be able to focus on yourself. I love it. I hope I can keep this up. I want to be hard core strong and able to kick ass if need be lol.

Nothing big going on this weekend. Just hanging around the apartment focusing on me as always! I think I might do a hard core cleaning. Just depends on my motivation so we shall see.

Let's See How Long This Last

So I am hardcore today. Took a class at the gym and just got back. Body pump which is explained here. Now I am waiting for my friend so we can go walking. My arms are killing me but my legs are not. I have done something everyday since Sunday as far as working out and would like to keep that out because I want to drop another size. Hopefully that will work out. I think I am on such a kick because I feel like its the most important thing going on right now with me and i can pour all my energy into myself. Well my friend is here so off to kick my butt some more!

Yeah I figured out links!!!!

Tuesday

Today was a good day. Got up a little late but had a good day teaching and for the most part had no issues. Then I went and took a class at the gym called athletic training which is different stations that all work different muscles. I am sure I will be hurting tomorrow from yesterday and today. But at least I am starting to tone up. Maybe I can drop another size. The secretary had heard that I used to be a lot bigger and asked to see fat pictures today and since I carry them around she looked at them for like 10 minutes and would show anyone that would walk pass. It feels so good to finally be at my goal weight and to know that i was actually able to drop 85 lbs when i never thought I would be skinny again.

I am ready for American Idol. I am so glad Antonella is gone. I am backing Chris Sligh (not that I vote.) I love him for his dry humor. I wonder what the theme is tonight. Only three minutes to show!

Crazy days

So today was easy because I didn't have students because it was a professional development day. I did though have a slight stress moment when I found out I was completely unprepared for something that is going on tomorrow at school. I just hate feeling like I don't know what i am doing and sometimes feel like that often. So I did have a small little cry in front of my principal which wasn't good but did take complete blame for not being prepared. It just is a little rough feeling so out of it sometimes.

On a positive note, I went to the gym and took a class called BodyPump again and my body hurts which I guess is a good thing.

Hopefully, this week will be easy and I won't be to stressed out. Only nine days until spring break!

New Fav Quote

I have been obsessivly blogging today but then remembered I needed to blog about my new favorite quote. I am single and love it because I can do what I want when I want. I was reading Entertainment Weekly and they have these sound bite things and this is a quote from the TV show Rules of Engagment from David Spades character after he is accused of wanting a relationship :

"I am a little bit jealous, you're right. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go do whatever I feel like doing, ALL the time."

And that is how I feel about relationships.

Sundays

So recently on Sundays I have just been laying around and not doing anything to exciting. But today my friend and I decided to go walking around a lake here and it actually felt good to get out and do something rather than just being a big bum.

Tomorrow is work but the kids have off so it shouldn't be so bad. I like it because I can be there an hour later than normal. It should be good.

I think this whole time change thing is going to mess with me tonight. Because its already 6 here and the sun is still really bright. I am sure it is going to make sleep come later but I guess since I get to be at work later tomorrow it won't affect me that bad.

Bizarre Behavior and Advice for friendships

Sometimes people may act in a way that other people think is a bizarre way. It's probably not bizarre to the person that is acting that way, it is probably pretty much their normal behavior. It is not good to tell your friends that they are acting bizarre because they will probably never speak to you again if you tell them that. This has just been a friendly PSA. Have a great day!

Delta Zeta and DePauw

So I was reading a people magazine and came across an article that discussed the Delta Zeta chapter at DePauw university. As a member of another sorority, I was interested in what was going on bc I don't watch the news often so I had heard nothing of it. In short, it said that more then half of the chapter was asked to become alum because of their lack of commitment to recruiting efforts (recruiting is a huge part of a sorority and it has to be done constantly.) The girls suuposedly all happened to be not so popular and not so cute. I would hope that no organization would ever do this to their members and hope that Delta Zeta did this based on the recruiting efforts of these members. Here is a link to the NY times article:

http://www.nytimes.com/2007/02/25/education/25sorority.html?ex=1330059600&en=586cb157d02771f3&ei=5088&partner=rssnyt&emc=rss

How do you make links look nicer than this???

Lazy Saturday Afternoon

So nothing really going on this evening. Just hanging around the apartment. I keep thinking about going shopping but my body hurts a bit from the class I took at the gym this morning. I guess being home and watching tv is just giving me time to think which I guess is a good thing. I have been being weird lately and let other people get me out of my routines and I refuse to let that happen. I like to do what i want to do when i want to do it and don't feel like I should have to explain myself to anyone. If I want to go to bed at 8pm, then I am not going to let someone screw up my schedule just to hang out. I don't care enough. I think I am just that self centered and I am okay with that.

Finally hit lifetime

So after a year and three months of weight watchers, I am finally a lifetime member and am happy. Free weigh-ins now and I am at my weight goal so it is great.

The Car Saga

So they tried to jump my car and that didn't really work out so I had it towed to Pep Boys. The people at Pep Boys tell me its going to be like 2 hours before then can check it so i call my friend to pick me up. I am in the room and I look like I am about to cry so they Pep Boys people are telling me it is probably something little and not a big deal at all. Well, while waiting on my friend, I walk to Walgreens and buy water bc I had none in my house and assumed I wouldn't make it to the grocery today. I get back from Walgreens and see that they are looking at my car in the parking lot. All of a sudden they get it turned on. They said it was nothing and that if I was worried about it I should bring it to the dealership tomorrow. So I owed them nothing (thank goodness.) I took my car out a little earlier and just tried to start it again and it started no problem. I guess maybe it was just a short or something. Who knows. Hopefully it keeps working.

Frustrating Day

It's only 10:15 and I can already tell that today is going to be a not so good day. I went out to my car to go ot the grocery and guess what .... the car won't start. I think it is the battery, I am waiting on triple a right now. Then I always thought that right after you got a jump everything would be fine but my mom said that I might have to go buy a new battery. I just really don't feel like dealing. I wish I would have stayed in bed. AHHHHH!!!! Frustration.

Relationships

So at the old age of 25, I still don't think I am ready to have a relationship. I think I am so set in my ways that there is no way I would let someone into my life to kinda of mess with what I like to do. I just don't think I am meant to have a serious monogamous relationship. I start getting close with people and then start puching them away and avoiding them. I have never really been like this before. In college, I was always the one chasing guys and always wanted a relationship and was extremley needy. But now I just push people away when I feel like they are getting to close. I think I am just scared and I make bad choices.